numba two (only five)

hey guys, quick post just to do five more of my about me's(one). wooooordddddd. i also felt the need to add a mediocre picture of myself in the mix, taken while breezy was having bonding time with daddy.
11.) i am very rude, it's unreal. sometimes the things i say are terrible, and it's too late to take it back.
12.) i lie so much. honestly. it's ridiculous. the words coming out of my mouth aren't even remotely true. i have no idea where it all comes from.
13.) while i lie, mostly to those i don't trust, i am honest, and share things with those i love even if it's embarrassing. (i probably share a little bit too much at times to be perfectly honest, oh there i go again)
14.) doing this in smaller portions is going too fast.
15.) i used to play flute and guitar, but quit. it was fun, and i loved it a lotta lotta.
bye guys!! i'll do the rest soon xx ariririririririririririenetteeee

tagged number one

i got tagged by like a million friends (and my mom) on facebook to share 25 things about myself(i'm sure you know a lot of these already, so i'll try to be original) . i actually really like making lists, so this should be fun. please do it if i tag you!!
1.) right now my room is messy and it's very hard to deal with. i usually clean it every sunday out of habit, but i didn't this weekend because i wanted to see if i could do it(obviously i could not). (one of my friends mocks my habit, and says things like "oh my god you are so messy, that is so bad")
2.) i love my cat a ridiculous amount.
3.) conor oberst is my main man. (no, really) but if this falls through i would also settle for jeremy piven (i'm aware that he's twenty seven years older than me(which is in fact older than my mother), but we have the same birthday OKAY?), gabe nevins in paranoid park (but only on certain angles and if he didn't talk) or, maybe just one of my friends (who will not be named but knows who he is. because we've talked about getting married before..)
4.) the above picture of mary-kate olsen is my favourite of her, i love that whole nylon shoot. i'm seriously one of her biggest fans EVER.
5.) i've decided against going to formal this year.
6.) i love photography with a wordless passion.
7.) biology is one of my favourite subjects, and i realized that this year while cutting open animals soaked in formaldahyde.
8.) the future scares me.
9.) shit is going down at my school right now.. intense shit.
10.) this is getting to be really long, so it's going to be small fonted and probably put into three parts... the third part will have the tagging.

love you all, sorry for the ridiculous amount of text, i know usually it's more picture oriented here.

the world is turning, i hope it don't turn away

i can honestly say today was one of the strangest days ever. i got two hours of sleep, and went to school to do a dissection (true story guys, i'm thinking of pursuing it as a career) of a sea star. i have been lately fighting a lot with a friend, and had been put off by what he recently said to me, so much that i had been reduced to tears out of hurt and frustration. b tried to help make me feel better, and she did, a bit. i guess lately (or did i mean nearly three years?) i've been in a funk and i've had a hard time getting out of it. i get teary from anything, and i take things too personally and i lie and i call people mean names and act dumb and i'm afraid i'm never going to change. and then on top of that, someone who left my life has entered it again, and i'm confused and worried. anyways, these are pictures of my day in no particular order, all unedited and raw. -crazy, bitchy, whiny, a.

her face was just a smear on the pane

warning, disturbingly personal blog like entry to follow.

sometimes i get into these sad little lonely funks. i am very afraid someday that i'll stop being a happy person and i'll crash and burn and not be able to get out of bed in the morning. i know it happens to people. i hope it doesn't happen to me.

breezy

happy horray!

today was such a lovely day. the man had no idea i was taking a picture of him, i just kind of set it like that. he looked a little mentally unstable so i was afraid to ask him if it would be alright if i could take a picture of him. seriously though, his hat was money. happy happy happy although everything is a mess right now. yay life. bio unit test first thing in the morning tomorrow!! yayy!

harder than i thought

blah blah blah, busy sleepy fighty stupid annoying life. i am seriously so sorry for all of these emotional rants errbody. i just found out today i have to get glasses, and also, i'm out of work. i have to save up a lot of money which means no shopping at all, for around eight months. it's going to suck but it'll be totally worth it. i don't even care anymore. school is meaningless. i am a robot. a school failing stupid teenage girl who hates everything except for selected things/people that buys too many cameras and yells at her friends and likes books and would rather be out of school and doing nothing than be in school and doing things everyday. i swear it'll come to a stop.

this isn't happening

chaky said it best: "november sucks. it's enough to turn a person to drink."

i'm going to spear you with a harpoon

soft

faking fashion

i'm sorry your hallows wasn't better airy, mine was sort of weird. i enjoyed myself in the moment but i am just tired and sad and want someone to yell at me so i can cry and feel better.

if music was my family: tom waits would be my grandfather, bob dylan my father, conor oberst my little brother and jeff mangum my husband. that sums me up pretty well i guess.

i could enjoy retail therapy. i don't know. i'm just feeling destructive. no one reads blogs for personal bullshit anyways.

breezy freezy

take me higher

some required

breezy is out dancing it up and staring at some hot german guy's face, while i'm tuned in to david letterman, waiting to see ashley olsen. after padraic yelling i quickly got out of that situation by going silent and making it awkward, thus ending my phone conversation. i felt a little strange today because i finally went to a full week of school. tomorrow is halloween, obviously, and breezy and i are spending some rad time with friends under the fireworks(breeze if you by chance read this before we see eachother i can either get there at six or four). i'm not sure how i'm feeling about halloween this year, to be honest. -a

wordddd

Today was fairly interesting. Not much happened, other than photobooth during Psycholoy, and a test during Biology, both with SB. Sorry for the messy blog posts lately, I'm dragging myself to do them. These pictures are from this morning, gorgeous. One of my friends, WT, can take credit for the first two. I love having a bus stop at a park on the water because the sunrises are so FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. Tomorrow SB and I are taking some time out of our busy, busy lives and taking a stroll down to the beach to take some phots. I'm hoping it'll be an overcast, fall day tomorrow and we'll give off the old men at sea vibe. BORING. God, just stop reading now.. -A

newest purchase

I bought a Fisheye 2 Lomography camera yesterday! Oh sweet camera, I think I'm in love. Step aside Padraic (or my d60)! It was fairly cheap, and I got a good deal with the film. I can't wait to start developing:)
On another note, I'm almost finished with the shirt. Breez.. gimme a while with yours, it takes forever. School has been stressful lately, and work. All I want to do is sleep and dream and watch movies and drink tea and take pictures and be with Padraic and be happy and smiley and good at things and listen to music and watch it rain and pet my cat and travel and not have people ever order soy cappuccinos. I'm sorry, it's sleeplessness that does this kind of thing to me. -A

;SLGHSKJF

Well I am just the worst blogger ever. Go ahead and agree with me. Thank you. I have been so sleepy lately, and so un-dreamy. It's not exciting in the least. I wish I could say that I've been busy, to cover up my lack of posts, but the truth is, I haven't. All I've been doing is listening to music (Explosions in the Sky, Radiohead, Bright Eyes/Conor Oberst, the Arcade Fire, ...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead and Flight of the Conchords, to say a few) and having some quarrels with those I care about. BREEZY I'M GLAD YOU'RE BETTER. Happy belated(does that apply here?) Thanksgiving to all of us Canadians. Oops, another slip on where we are located! Blah blah blah, I know, I know Breezy, BORING. All I wish is for it to be winter time already. Mmm.. tights and scarves and hats and coats and lovely lovely love.
If money wasn't an issue:
I love
I want you to not be over two hundred dollars
mmm be mine
MENSWEAR
I need you
this wouldn't be too bad either
LOVE
lovely lovely
anyways, enough enough. I could go all night. I'm too tired for anything right now. I'm too tired not to be with Padraic. Sleepy sleepy sleepy. I miss. I sleep soon. Watch High Fidelity.

its all grey matter

i don't know. everything feels so wierd when i'm sick and i feel strangely independent skipping school and walking and i just want to be an actress and i just want my life to work out well and have never ending euphoria but everything and everyone is so shallow and silly and i'm so moody and grumpy and sick and hypocritical

i hate when the good things in life turn into habits which turn into boring
its hard being happy all the time obviously.

i don't know. i never know.
breezy

p.s. i'm going to arienettes for thanksgiving so expect pictures without our faces but with our souls sometime soon